Episode 236
Im coming, Don groaned as he walked towards his front door.
He had been woken up by the doorbell ringing a couple of times. Today was
supposed to be his day to rest in, but obviously--that was never happen for
him. What is it?
Did I wake you up? Shannon questioned worriedly as he shook his
head slowly. Blinking a few times, letting his eyes get used to the light
from the sun.
No, youre fine, Don assured her with a small yawn as he
grabbed the door handle, Whats up?
I was just was wondering if we could just
talk or something,
Shannon shrugged her shoulders, with obvious features that showed she was
feeling bad.
Whats wrong Shannon? Don wondered with a small frown, reaching
out to run his fingertips along her cheek lightly as he felt her lean into
his warm touch.
Its just the night I have had, Shannon let out an exhausted
sigh as Don nodded slowly, I just--I guess you could say I am a little
overwhelmed.
Mixed with me upset, Don nodded slowly, reaching out to hug her
in his arms tightly, I heard about what happened last night. I am so
sorry that all this happened. I wish it could have been different.
You know what really kills me inside though? Shannon questioned,
resting her head against his chest as he held her in a tight embrace.
Whats that? Don kissed her forehead lightly before seeing
her look up at him with her big eyes.
The fact that I saw all my friends breaking down right in front of me,
Shannon declared, shaking her head slowly. You should have seen everyone
last night.
I can only imagine how they were feeling and acting, Don sighed,
letting her out of his grasp as she took a step back and looked down towards
the ground.
I never would have imagined that this would have happened Don,
she frowned, biting down on her bottom lip. You should have seen everyone.
Seth was breaking down. And Kyle, he was blaming himself for this whole thing.
He was going crazy. I dont think I have ever seen him like this before.
Even worse, you should have seen Grady.
Really torn up? he questioned seeing her nod slowly. I know
what kind of position he is in right now. Its hard--really hard. The
pain kills you inside. I know.
You do? Shannon looked up at him seeing him nod slowly. How
so?
Long story, he breathed out slowly, taking a glance behind him,
would you like to come in to talk about things? Maybe I could cook us
some breakfast. How doest that sound?
Sounds great, Shannon smirked as he led her into his house and
motioned her to wait for a second, Where are you going?
I think I should get changed, he pointed out, looking down at
his pajamas. They were a present that Matt had gotten him for his birthday.
Scooby-Doo pants. That was Matts favorite cartoon. Somehow, I
dont think Scooby will be very entertaining for you.
No, dont change, she shook her head quickly as Don looked
over his shoulder and towards his room, You look cute. I think the tank
top and Scooby make a cute mixture.
If you think that, Don shrugged with a small smile, then
I guess Scooby it is.
So, what is Scooby planning on making me for breakfast? Shannon
questioned, eyeing him slowly as he shrugged.
I dont know, he smirked, folding his arms out in front of
his chest, Scooby really doesnt know what Shannon likes to eat
for breakfast.
In that case, Shannon grabbed onto Dons hand, leading him
towards the kitchen, Lets go find things that I like so Scooby
will know in the future.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Valerie opened the front door to JTs apartment whistling a tune. Last
night had been heavenly--divine in so many ways. While shed been quite
preoccupied with getting Seth back, well Cameron had easily found a way to
get her forget about that quest for a night. Perhaps she would extend that
beyond a night, she mused to herself with a proud smirk knowing only to well
how a man like Cameron could offer her heaven if she played her cards right.
There was just something about a dark and dangerous billionaire that was enough
to get a girls spirits boosted.
Walking past the kitchen she noticed JT seated at the table with a newspaper
and a mug of coffee in hand. She stopped just beyond the kitchen door contemplating
whether or not she should gloat. She was almost tempted to say to hell with
him, but remembering his foul mood from the night before, she decided to give
him a hard time. She stepped backwards entering the kitchen with a grin.
Well hello crabby, Valerie greeted him smugly making her way over
to inspect the pot of coffee hed put on. She reached for it, holding
it up to take a quick whiff of it before opting to pour herself a glass. She
walked over to the cabinet reaching for a mug before glancing at him once
more, So tell me, did you wake up on the right side of the bed this
morning?
As long as you werent in it, its always the right side Val,
JT groaned in response not bothering to look up at her, but then again
I suppose my brother cant count the same blessings in that respect,
now can he?
Your brother is absolutely divine, she sighed dreamily filling
her mug. She lifted it to her lips, taking a smooth sip of the steaming liquid
before speaking up once again, Who knew that there was someone with
charm and manners in your family?
I believe the correct term youre reaching for is moron,
JT glanced at her casually looking completely bored with her, because
thats something I consider my brother to be after last night. The mere
fact that he was taken by you only proves that being in jail has made him
desperate and needy--two things that never seemed to mesh well with Cameron.
Ill have you know that hes far from being desperate and
needy. Hes powerful, passionate and by far one of the most erotic lovers
that Ive ever been with, she stepped in closer to him taking another
sip of her coffee, Ill have you know that he has a great many
talents that you yourself would be best suited to pick up on.
Please, I just finished breakfast, he groaned dropping the paper
down to make a twisted, gut wrenching expression, I dont need
to throw up here.
Oh please, she rolled her eyes pulling out the chair across from
him before taking a seat, you only wish you could claim the same privilege
that your brother had with me last night.
Now thats where youre the one lost in the land of delusion,
he groaned back at her, casting another bored and useless glance in her general
direction, Id rather give up sex altogether than take a ride on
the express train with you.
Right, she scoffed finding herself agitated by his lack of response
to her bragging, youre so in denial JT.
And youre so full of yourself, he eyed her once again, which
surprises me because from where I sit you have a lot to improve upon.
Ah, so youre saying that I dont hold a candle to your precious
Diane then yes? she questioned leaning in over the table top, That
I cant be as much of a plain Jane as she is?
On the contrary, Diane is extraordinary, but you are, he frowned
over at her again, well
something Id rather not discuss this
morning. It might conjure up all the wrong horrifying images and we cant
have that
Well, whatever. Youre so lost in your own little world of stupidity
JT, she grumbled in response. You know you want me.
Yeah about as much as Id like to have another hole in my head,
he laughed mildly amused with her. He set the paper down before sliding it
across the table at her, but while you were off shagging my brother,
I must admit you were missing out on the opportunity of the lifetime--that
is if you still consider Seth to be your opportunity there.
Why do you say that? Valerie questioned her eyes lingering over
to the newspaper. She caught a glimpse of the headline and her jaw dropped
in horror. She eyed JT once more, Is this for real?
Thats very for real, he nodded back at her, Destiny
was giving you a bond to work with while you were having a nasty old time
with Cameron
I just cant believe, she looked to the paper again, I
mean with Jade it was just so
Unexpected, JT finished reaching for the sports section. He stood
up giving her another once over before shaking his head, and if you
were smart youd know what to do with this.
Saying nothing more JT walked out of the room leaving Valerie to stare at
the headline. She picked it up, reading it over as her thoughts became suddenly
clear. Oh yes, she more than knew what to do with this one. She was going
to see to it that Seth knew as well.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Trisha opened her eyes hearing a distinct rumbling sound coming from outside
of Rias guest bedroom. She popped her head into the hallway looking
around in the hopes of discovering the source of the sound, but the apartment
fell to silence again. She paused momentarily trying to see if she could hear
Ria, but once again there was still silence around her. Thinking she mustve
imagined it, Trisha turned around ready to return to the guest room when the
rumbling sound returned. She stood frozen just listening for a long minute
before turning around again.
Ria? she questioned in a low, raspy whisper hesitating before
making any further movement, Ria is that you?
There was no response--no other sound except for the pounding of Trishas
heart. She thought shed imagined the noise for the second time, but
right now she wasnt about to take any chances. Inhaling slowly she started
down the hallway ready to see what could be waiting for her near the kitchen.
Sure, she might still be shaken from what had happened, but she wasnt
about to be a sitting duck. If someone was in the apartment, then she was
going to seek them out and try to take control of the situation. She stopped
briefly at the broom closet pulling out some sort of feather duster Ria had
inside. It wasnt much, but the long pole might hurt like hell if she
slammed it into someones head.
Tentatively Trisha peered her head into the kitchen discovering it empty.
She felt a breath of relief escape her lips before she moved towards the living
room discovering it empty as well. She lowered the feather duster, but then
she heard another noise. She spun around to look at the front door wondering
if her mind was playing tricks on her or if it was something more. She stepped
in closer to the door rising up on her toes to look out the peep hole. She
didnt see anything, but at the same time she didnt quite trust
herself enough to go out without protection. Back pedaling to the kitchen,
she pulled a knife out of the drawer.
If youre here for me you son of a bitch, then Im not going
to make this easy for you, she vowed reaching out to the door now armed
with a knife and a feather duster. She stepped out into the hallway taking
a look around. She saw nothing, but continued to take another step further.
It was then when a new sound swept over her. The distinct slamming of the
door from behind!
No, Trisha cried out spinning around to try to fight with the
door. Somehow it had been locked and when she closed it, shed managed
to lock herself out. How can this be happening? Please
just open.
The door refused to comply with her wishes and Trisha let out a pained cry.
She hit the door again, her heart pounding in her chest. Her fears mounted
as she looked around the hallway fearing what could be lurking out there now
that shed locked herself out of Rias apartment. Fear consumed
her. Her mind returned to when shed been held up in Bruces hotel
room and in that moment she turned to the door pounding on it wildly.
Please open, she begged behind a pinched cry dropping the duster,
yet still clenching the knife in hand. She reached for the door knob struggling
with it.
Are you alright, she heard a voice call out from behind her. She
felt a hand on her shoulder and she spun around ready to attack. The man behind
her saw the knife and jumped back hurriedly.
Hey, look Im sorry, he stammered moving another step backwards.
I didnt mean anything
No, its not you, she replied realizing that she looked threatening
with the knife. She struggled to get her words out, but they were a small
whisper, I thought I heard a noise in the apartment and I locked myself
out
I was just worried and
And I didnt help anything by sneaking up on you like I did,
he looked to the knife. His eyes traveled to her neck seeing the bandages
on it, but fortunately for both of us I moved before you could hurt
me. You know you really shouldnt play with knives.
I wasnt playing. I was trying to protect myself, she threw
her hand up in the air, but I guess it doesnt matter now that
Im locked out.
Do you have a key, he questioned curiously.
If I did I wouldnt be standing here, she glared up at him
with obvious annoyance.
Well, he scratched his chin lightly, his handsome features fixed
on her, I suppose we can go back to my place and you can call the super.
He probably has a key
I suppose, but
she bit down on her lower lip nervously,
This isnt my place.
I figured as much considering that Ria lives here, he nodded in
response. Im assuming shes not home.
No, shes not. I thought she would be, but when I woke up she was
gone and
she started again feeling a breath catch in the back
of her throat.
You must be Trisha, he replied with a knowing expression, Im
Michael. Michael Winston. Ria mentioned that she might be having her sister
with her for the next few days or so when I caught her on the elevators this
morning.
She did? Trisha added curiously. She took a long look at this
man before her wondering how in the world shed been to Rias apartment
and missed him before. Of course here she was with bed head and looking like
death warmed over, but she still couldnt help but notice how cute he
was.
Yeah, she did, Michael nodded with a small smile, and truth
be told Ria has locked herself every now and then as well, but shed
probably never tell you that.
No, she wouldnt, she replied feeling a bit more at ease.
So Ill tell you what, he leaned back against the wall motioning
to the door across from where Trisha stood. My place is right over there.
You can go and call the super and then we can wait for him out here together
if you like.
Really? she questioned surprised at his generosity considering
that she had to look like a zombie in her oversized t-shirt and bandages.
Yes really, he nodded politely, Im sure he wont
take too long and I dont mind you coming on in to use the phone. In
fact I can call if youd like.
Thanks Id appreciate that, she raised her hand to her throat
fingering the bandage over her torn flesh.
Not a problem, he turned towards his apartment moving one step
forward before looking back, You can come with me you know. Just as
long as you promise not to stab me with that thing.
Huh? she remembered the knife, Oh yeah I promise.
Okay, then its this way, he pointed to his door leading
the way as Trisha took another look around the hallway wondering if her past
would be finding a way to haunt her again. She couldve sworn shed
heard something and with Ria being gone it frightened her, but maybe in finding
Michael she could be able to relax--at least for a little while once the super
came up to let her back into the apartment. Maybe then shed try to find
out where the hell Ria went without telling her.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Maybe you should rest, Blake suggested, seeing the way Seth just
seemed to be staring out into space as he thought. Seth?
I cant, Seth shook his head slowly, still not taking his
gaze away from the door. You know, right now--I am just wishing that
somehow Jade is going to walk through that door. She is going to come back
to me.
Seth, you have to stop killing yourself over this, Blake stated,
taking a seat next to him. She grabbed his hand in hers as he closed his eyes
shut tightly.
Dont worry, Seth made a sarcastic smile, shaking his head
slowly, Someone already has died. Unfortunately is was Jade and not
me.
Jade wouldnt want you to be feeling this way, she frowned,
lying her head on Seths tense shoulder, She would want you to
be happy.
Jade never knew what she wanted, he shook his head slowly, thinking
back to his sister when they were younger. We used to spend at least
twenty minutes in front of an ice-cream truck. She always had trouble picking
what she wanted. I remember that Kevin and I would get so irritated. Kevin
would be the one paying, so of course the total would keep changing. Now that
she is gone, I realize that those moments keep slipping away from me.
Nothing will slip away from you, Blake hushed, rubbing his tense
back lightly, The only way all those memories slip is if you let it
happen. Jade is always in your heart.
I dont want her in my heart Blake, Seth yelled out, standing
up from where he was sitting, I want her in front of me. I want to hold
my little sister in my arms. I want to continue being her big brother for
the rest of my life.
Seth, you will always be with Jade, Blake tried to convince him
as he shook his head slowly.
You know, I remember when we were younger--I used to always get mad
at her, he chuckled, thinking back to when they were younger again.
I was on a baseball team--the same one as Kev. We were going to have
this big game and we went downstairs for a minute to get something to drink.
And while we were down there, Jade thought it would be funny if she glued
our gloves shut. During the game we were so embarrassed. Kevin was right under
the ball and instead of him catching it--the ball bounced off his glove and
hit him right in the face.
Sounds like a funny moment, she pointed out seeing him nod slowly.
It was nice to hear him let out small laughs. It was hardly going to happen
anymore. What happened after that?
We lost the game, Seth nodded slowly before laughing. Kevin
had got knocked unconscious--it was great. I look back at it and I find it
funny. The only thing I keep thinking about is how I yelled at her all night
long. I blamed her for us losing the game. As I think of it now--that was
something adorable that she did. I just wish I could have just spent more
time with her--loving her than yelling at her.
Im sure she knew you loved her, she insisted as he shook
his head slowly, Dont keep killing yourself Seth.
I cant just let it go Blake. My baby sister is gone and I will
never be able to see her again, Seth felt his eyes begin to burn as
he heard a knock at the door. Could you get that? I dont feel
like seeing people right now.
Alright, Blake nodded slowly, opening the door to see a worried
Kevin and Ria together. Kevin.
Kevin? Seth questioned as Kevin walked into the apartment and
Seth walked over to his cousin, wrapping his arms around Kevin tightly. I
cant believe this is happening.
I know, Kevin hushed, his eyes still sore from when he heard the
news earlier, Just let it out cuz. I understand, Im going to be
right here.
I cant believe shes gone Kevin, Seth felt his eyes
begin to become tear filled, She gone Kevin and there is nothing we
could say or do to change that.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Cheryl entered the Denton living room carrying a tray in hand. She looked
to Elliot, Brant and Avery who were all now seated around the coffee table
all looking forlorn. She noticed Grady was still not a part of the crowd and
that had her concerned.
Still nothing? Cheryl asked turning to Elliot.
Hes not answering the door, Elliot sighed worried about
his son now that the news about Jades death had a short time to register.
Hed never seen his son so lost before, but now it felt like there was
another huge chunk missing in the family.
I wish that he would come out and talk to us. I hate to think of him
holding it all in like this, Cheryl added motioning to the tray she
brought with her. She set it on the center of the coffee table, I brought
some tea if everyone wanted anything to drink.
Thank you, Brant replied politely reaching for a mug. He looked
around seeing that neither the Dentons nor Avery looked very interested in
taking any. He half contemplated leaving the mug on the tray, but opted to
be different. He could only imagine what Grady was going through at a moment
like this. It had to be one of the most heart wrenching experiences to lose
the love of your life, yet in this moment in time Brant felt rather awkward
at the Denton home with reminders of Russ all around him. He sipped his tea
looking to the wall and seeing a photo of Russ and Grady together. Looking
a bit further he noticed a wedding photo for Russ and Avery.
Look away, he silently told himself turning his attention to the
conversation or lack there of it going on with the Dentons and Avery.
I just wish that hed let us in, Cheryl lamented with a heavy
sigh, Its not like him to just close everyone off like this.
Hes hurting and he needs time. This isnt something that
can just be fixed, Elliot hung his head low, the words sinking in for
him as well. It just didnt seem right--didnt seem fair to think
that someone so young and full of life could have it all ripped away from
them in a senseless act of violence.
I think I need some air, Avery announced breaking her long silence.
Brant could see that she was upset--that the news of Jades death was
hitting her hard as well and he suspected that it had something to do with
the memories of losing Russ in a similar fashion. He set his tea cup down
ready to join her, but she reached out touching his hand gently and speaking
up, Ill be back shortly.
Are you sure, he questioned searching her sad, dark eyes.
She nodded, Ill just be out front for a few minutes. Stay here
just in case they need anything.
Alright, Brant nodded reluctantly watching her leave the Denton
living room. He turned to see Cheryl and Elliot seated beside one another
worried about their son. He reached for his tea again taking another sip.
We cant just leave him in there Elliot, Cheryl tried to
appeal to her husband once again. I know hes hurting, but holding
it all in isnt going to help anything.
I realize that, but right now I think he needs time. He needs to be
able to come to terms with this in his own way, Elliot decided wondering
what his son must be going through after all of this.
I still dont like the idea of him being in there all by himself,
Cheryl sighed heavily.
You could always break the door down if he doesnt answer,
Brant piped in eliciting strange looks from both Cheryl and Elliot. He let
out a small gulp before speaking up once again. It was just a suggestion.
With that he fell back to silence feeling like an idiot with Averys
former in-laws around him. There was just something to said about sitting
in the living room of the family of a man who was once your biggest rival
for your wifes attention. It caused one hell of an uncomfortable silence.
Right now Brant really believed he was hurting rather than helping the situation.
The Dentons were hurting, yet here he was thick in the middle of it.
This just hasnt been our year, Cheryl started turning her
attention to Brant once more. He was surprised that she even considered speaking
with him knowing full well how out of place he was, Our family hasnt
had the best of luck and now for Grady to have to deal with this
I cant even begin to pretend that I understand the way hes
feeling right now, Brant offered up sympathetically, To have loved
someone who was so obviously evil and then have that same person tear your
world apart, well
it just goes without saying how horrible that is.
It is horrible, Elliot added further, No one saw it coming
with Susan. We never suspected.
I always knew there was something that wasnt right about her,
Brant frowned thinking about the evil she carried with her, When I think
of how she nearly killed my brother
Your brother was a fool to get involved with her in the first place.
If he hadnt stepped in and spoiled Gradys marriage like he had,
then perhaps Susan wouldnt have snapped and Grady wouldnt have
gone off the deep end like he had, Elliot shot back at him icily.
Elliot, Cheryl gasped in surprise at her husbands tone.
Well its the truth Cheryl, Elliot frowned back at her, We
dont know how any of this wouldve gone if things wouldve
worked out for Susan and Grady.
Do you honestly believe that something positive couldve come out
of it? Brant couldnt help but ask, Considering all that
Susan has done, do you really believe that had she not had an affair with
my brother that Grady wouldve been any better off? Susans clearly
evil and that isnt something that a simple affair brought about.
Theres nothing simple about an affair, Elliot snapped back
at him, but then again to someone of your kind, I suppose an affair
means nothing--that the vows of marriage mean little to nothing to someone
like you. Its not about love or happiness, but about how much you can
take and keep taking. You dont care if two people are happy in love--just
that you get what you want--what you feel you deserve.
Elliot stop, Cheryl pleaded with him, her eyes filled with worry
and concern as her husband stood up.
No Cheryl Ive spent most of my life listening to the Ashfords
dictate the way it should be when the rest of us are down and out. Ive
seen them take and take and tear a person apart. They dont care who
they hurt or what they do as long as they benefit, Elliot glared down
at Brant, Deep down they are all the same.
Without another word Elliot stomped out of the room back into the kitchen.
Cheryl looked over at Brant apologetically finding herself at a loss.
He doesnt mean that, Cheryl started quietly, Hes
just upset and worried about Grady.
You dont have to explain, Brant raised his hand to stop
her, I know how your family feels about mine--how you all think the
worst about us.
Its just a hard time you see
Cheryl tried to explain
further.
Even so, that doesnt change the fact that when the battle lines
are drawn its always the Ashfords versus the rest of the world, isnt
it? Brant remarked with complete understanding, I mean its
easier to blame us for whats wrong rather than for those to take a long,
hard look at their own lives--at the things that brought us all to where they
are. In fact, I can see Im not welcome here, so maybe its time
I go.
Cheryl watched Brant stand up, seeing the hurt behind his eyes as she spoke
out to him. Brant wait. Please. My husband is a proud man and he just
doesnt understand why things are as they are. He knows as well as we
do that Susan is a wicked woman, but right now, hes upset. Hes
saying things that he simply doesnt mean
Oh he means them. Its just that tragedy is the time when the truth
comes out. From where I stand I can see your husband feels that Im not
worthy of Avery--that an Ashford isnt clearly capable of loving like
Russell was, Brant added tightly, but regardless of how little
you both think of me, I do love her. Her happiness means a great deal to me
as does that of her daughter.
I know that, Cheryl nodded, and believe me this isnt
about you. There were wars started long before you were ever born. The Ashfords
and the Dentons, they just have history and
And history never truly erases itself does it, Brant shook his
head at her, I guess as it is right now Im the enemy and Ill
always be that. I know Avery wanted me here, but this isnt my place.
Its not my family and Im sure its never going to be a situation
that any of us are comfortable with.
Cheryl watched him turn to leave and she felt the urge to say something further,
Brant, I know that you try. I know that you want to make things work
with Avery. I can see that you care about her. In that sense youre very
much like your father.
What? Brant stopped where he stood turning around to face her
with a look of disbelief, How can you say such a thing?
Because I knew the man he once was, Cheryl added in a small voice
color rising over her features. She stood up glancing over to the kitchen
before speaking further, Brant, I used to work for your father long
before you were born. I knew Nicholas in ways that no one else ever could.
Yes, he could be a hard man to live with and I wont pretend to believe
that he was an honorable or upstanding man. My husband will tell you a great
many horrible things about your father, but deep down I knew he had a strength.
He had something about him that wasnt entirely evil. He had a lot of
good in him for a while, until he chose to bury it. You on the other hand,
well Ive heard the stories, but I can see the truth behind your eyes.
I can see it in the way youve helped Grady--in the way you care for
Avery. You have the best of your father in you and youre another reminder
that there was once a depth and a soul in him. You were blessed with the greatest
gift he refused to hold onto.
My father was a miserable man, Brant let out an ironic laugh,
and since he died all Ive heard about was what a son of a bitch
he was. There hasnt been one person in this world who has said one positive
thing about him--myself included.
Yes, well unfortunately you werent able to know the man he once
was. He had a passion and a heart in him. He wasnt cold and calculating
when I knew him. He was kind and gentle and Im sorry that you have to
keep having his sins thrown in your face, Cheryl took a step closer
to him, There were a few good things he did in this world and youre
one shining example of that. Youre a good man Brant and while my husband
may be upset right now, he really doesnt mean it. Hes not angry
with you. Hes angry at things that none of us could control--the things
that we cant change.
Even so by my being here Im not helping anything, Brant
confessed looking over to the wall where Russ and Averys wedding photo
hung dutifully, Thats the life that everyone wished had been.
What we wish isnt what happened and as much as we all wish we
couldve changed things, we cant take it back, Cheryl followed
his gaze looking to the photograph of her son as a memory returned to the
back of her mind. She eyed Russells photo intently thinking about the
spark she saw behind her sons eyes--the way his crooked grin reminded
her of a time in her life when things felt hopeless--when she and Elliot had
been in a crunch and
I know that, Brant replied turning to her, and for what
its worth, Im truly sorry for all of this. For the way its
all turned out for everyone.
So am I Brant. So am I, Cheryl sighed heavily wondering if this
wasnt anything more than payback for the sins of her past. Time and
time again shed tried to ignore the way fate had come full circle to
take away her happiness, but now there was no ignoring the fact that her sons
had suffered far worse than shed ever imagined due to the fact that
shed broken one of the most important vows of her life. Shed slipped
and in that moment life as she and Elliot knew it had fallen to pieces and
she feared that with this latest loss it would never truly fall back into
place again. Russell had lost his life. Grady was suffering and now, well
now she had no idea what the future could hold in store for any of them.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Grady sat in his old tree house thinking about the warmth and comfort hed felt in this place growing up. While hed gone into his old room to retreat for a while, he realized that he couldnt just stay in there. The walls were closing in on him and nothing would take away the pain that filled him cutting him down to the core. He looked around this small tree house knowing that maybe he was regressing a bit, but even now when he thought back to his childhood he could remember the good times he had shared in this place with Russ.
Ill trade you, ten year old Russell decided holding a baseball
card up and out of the cigar box hed faithfully carried with him.
Not a chance, Grady shook his head holding his own cards protectively.
I wouldnt dream of making such a foolish trade. Youre on
your own Russ.
Awe come on Grady, Russell frowned up at him, You already
have three of them. Why not share with me?
Because I dont like to share, Grady argued with a small
huff, Theres no way that Im giving them to you. Besides
if we traded youd just be giving them to Avery anyways.
Would not, Russell argued sticking his tongue out at his brother.
Would too, Grady leaned forward to nudge Russell slightly when
there was a knock on the door underneath the tree house. Both boys looked
to the center watching the door fly open without any further prompting. A
freckle faced Avery popped her head in before she wiggled up to join them
in the cramped surroundings.
Hey guys, whats going on, Avery questioned sliding in between
the both of them, crossing her legs in front of her. Your mom said you
both were in here, so I thought Id see what you were doing.
Cant you read goober? Grady grumbled over at Avery, No
girls allowed. This is a tree house for boys.
And dont you know anything stupid, Avery rolled her eyes
at him, Girls have equal rights in this country. They can do whatever
it is boys can do if not better. Your sign isnt legal and it wouldnt
stand up in a court of law so therefore I can be in here anytime I want to.
Plus Russell gave me permission, so there.
You didnt, Grady turned to look at his brother before letting
out a small groan, Oh Russ, why would you go and do something stupid
like that?
Because I want Avery to be a part of our secret club, Russell
explained firmly, Shes cool enough Grady and you know it. Shes
way more fun than most of the boys around here and I want her here.
Well I dont, Grady replied stubbornly, besides if
she wants to be in, you and I both know she wont make it past the test.
She cant live up to the challenge because shes a girl.
And just why not, Avery questioned making a small sound, Why
is it you think that I cant do anything that you can do Grady Denton?
Because you cant, Grady added with a hint of mischief behind
his tone, Although if you really want to prove yourself then you have
to go through initiation. That is if youre man enough for the challenge
Oh Im up for the challenge, Avery replied smugly before
adding with heavy emphasis, Im plenty of woman to get it done
and be better at it than you are.
Well just see about that, Grady rubbed his palms together
thinking about all the ways he was going to enjoy torturing his brothers
latest playmate.
Now as Grady sat in the tree house remembering the ways in which he, Russ
and Avery had spent most of their days during the summer and after school
in this very place after initiation day, he found himself almost wishing that
they could go back to that. He wanted to return to the time when things were
simpler--easier--when things werent so complicated. When the love of
his life wasnt dead at the hand of a woman hed once pledged his
life to. It just wasnt right.
He found himself choked up on his tears when there was a knock at the door
in front of him. He looked down to the floor watching the creaky hinge open
up to reveal Averys dark head popping up through the floor.
Can I come in, she questioned watching him wearily.
That has to be a first, he replied seeing her wiggle her way up
through the entrance, You never asked before.
Yeah, well I wasnt sure if you were ready to stick me with the
no girls allowed rule, she added sliding in carefully maneuvering herself
around the small space. She closed the door gently before looking to him again.
Hmm, well I could enforce it, but then again I think we had to abolish
that rule once you passed initiation, Grady couldnt help but crack
a half smile at the memory.
She wrinkled her nose before glaring at him, I still cant believe
that you made me do that. That was just cruel.
Hey, it was innocent enough and you were ballsy enough to give it a
try, he shrugged his shoulders feeling a moment of lightness between
them.
Yes, but making me eat a worm was a little extreme, Avery huffed
in response, and Ill have you know that I never forgave you for
Brooke making me go and get my stomach pumped after I came home and told her
that I ate five worms to be in your club.
Grady chuckled a bit further, Ah yes and then I was grounded for a month
for tricking you into doing such a horrible, nasty thing.
Yeah, well you deserved it after my mother unnecessarily tortured me
for being a kid, she scooted in beside him seeing the sadness behind
his eyes as the memory faded, but even when you were at your worst Grady,
you never deserved any of this.
Grady fell silent once more, his thoughts returning to all the dreams and
plans for a future hed made with Jade. Unable to hold back on his tears
he looked to Avery, I just dont understand. How could this happen?
How could I lose her when we were on the verge of everything?
I dont know, she bit back on her own tears, but it
wasnt right. None of this was right
How could Susan do this? Grady questioned painfully, How
could a woman I once loved with everything I was not only kill my brother,
but the love of my life. She hurt Kyle and now with Jade
Im so sorry Grady, Avery reached out to embrace him feeling
his pain moving in over her, I wish I could take it back.
I just dont understand how she couldve said she loved me--couldve
pretended to care about me only to take it all away from me, Gradys
tears fell freely, First our baby when she had the abortion and now
Jade and our baby. I feel like shes torn my heart out from my chest
and its never coming back. Avery, all I ever wanted was to have a life
and a future with Jade, but now
now I have nothing. I am nothing.
No youre not Grady. Youre something--something wonderful,
Avery touched his cheek gently seeing the depth of his pain burning behind
his green eyes.
No, without her I have nothing left. Susan took it all away from me
and I cant get it back. I cant ever get it back, he fell
into her arms overcome with sobs as Avery found herself lost in a whirlwind
of tears. This horrible tragedy brought forth so many emotions--so many memories
of losing Russ and as she and Grady held onto one another both lost in their
painful reality, she knew that life would never be the same. Their future
would never, ever be the same again as they were both missing the other half
of their hearts and there would never be any getting that back.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Sarahs eyes opened as she let out a small yawn, it had been a long
night for the everyone. She turned around to go and feel Kyles warm
body next to hers, but instead felt the cool sheets next to her. She got up
and wrapped her robe around her before looking around the room. Kyles
shirt was still on the chair, which meant that he was obviously still here.
The question was, where could he be now?
Kyle? Sarah called out his name as she heard a sound coming from
the library as she walked over towards the room. She saw Kyle standing above
the desk, studying something before him. Kyle, what are you doing?
Looking, Kyle replied, never taking his eyes off the papers before
him as she walked over towards him, I need to find her.
Find who? Sarah questioned, wrapping her arms around his shoulders
as he bent down to pick up a paper. What is that?
A plane schedule, he answered as she let go of him and took a
step back, I have every train schedule, plane schedule, and everything
else that could help me find Susan.
Kyle this isnt your job to do this, Sarah let out a small
groan as he looked through the papers, You arent going to be able
to search through all those things.
I already have, Kyle replied, grabbing another paper off the table,
I will find Susan--I am going to find her and when I do
I am going
to get her for what she has done.
Dont talk like that, she frowned as he set the papers back
down on the desk before turning to face her, What exactly do you mean
by getting her?
I mean, I am going to do whatever it takes for us to get payback,
Kyle stated, biting down on his bottom lip as he thought about what was happening
with Susan. She is killing Grady inside Sarah and she is going to pay
for what she did to him.
What about what she did to you Kyle? Sarah questioned, holding
her hands up in the air. Or are you forgetting that she has hurt you.
Are you forgetting that you could still get sick from what she did to you.
What did she did to me is just minor, Kyle pointed out with a
small scowl, She killed all those people Sarah--without a motive. She
just killed them. Most of the people I was closest to in my life, she took
away from me. She took away Russ, he was like my little brother Sarah. I grew
up with him and I loved him like he was my brother. Do you know how much that
has been killing me inside? And now Jade, believe it or not--I cared for her
too. She was one of the people that were actually pretty decent in town. She
was my friend and I was proud to call her my friend.
Many people lost her Kyle, she added with a small nod as she saw
he was going to continue to go on.
Yeah, but what you dont understand is how many people she hurt
in the long run, Kyle insisted, shaking his head quickly. Look
at what happened to Avery. Another one of my close friends, her life is taking
twists and turns now that Russ is gone. And my best friend in the whole world,
is going to have to live a life without the person he loves Sarah. Grady will
never be able to see Jade again, just like Avery. Two of the most important
people in my life, will never live the life they planned on living.
What you have to be thankful for is what you still have, Sarah
hushed as Kyle folded his arms out in front of his chest angrily. You
have to be happy for what you still have.
Sarah, Jade didnt deserve any of this. She was a good person,
Kyle gulped down thinking to what had been happening lately to all the good
people in town. Susan needs to pay for what she has done to Jade, Grady,
Avery, Russ, me, and everyone else that she screwed with. That woman doesnt
deserve to be free of worry.
Kyle, you should really calm down and take everything slower,
Sarah suggested, seeing him grab his stomach in pain, You are going
to make yourself sick.
Ill be fine, he retorted with a small groan before going
on, Even what she did to me. Im never going to be the same again.
She screwed me up Sarah and I dont think I am ever going to be the same
again.
What is that supposed to mean? Sarah questioned worriedly as he
bit down on his bottom lip in pain, trying to hide his pain from her.
It doesnt mean anything, Kyle snapped, shaking his head
slowly, Im just not going to let something so small like this
stop me from finding Susan. She isnt going to get away from me. And
no one, not you, not Grady
no one is going to stop me. Got it?
I
Sarah could hardly get out another word as Kyle quickly
walked out of the room and she heard the bathroom door slam shut. She walked
over to the bathroom and from the sounds of his coughing and gagging, she
could tell that he was getting sick. Kyle, open the door.
Im fine, Kyle coughed, turning on the water so she couldnt
hear him. He felt like he had the flu right now, his stomach was bothering
him so much.
Kyle open up, Sarah ordered, hearing the water turn off and him
unlock the door. She looked in the room to see him sitting on the ground with
towel in his hand as he wiped at his mouth. She let out a small sigh before
sitting down next to him on the floor. You got sick, didnt you?
I am sick Sarah, Kyle replied with a small groan, grabbing onto
his stomach, I dont know whats going on Sarah, all I know
is that I am screwed up. Im not sure what this drug does Sarah, but
I feel like I treat you so bad. Im sorry that I was getting all angry--its
just that
Dont worry, Sarah hushed, pulling him into her arms as she
rested her forehead against his and ran her hands along his smooth back slowly.
I could never be mad at you Kyle--never.
I know, Kyle frowned, tightening his arms around her and pulling
her into a stronger embrace. I think the only reason I feel so strongly
about this is because everyone I love is dying. Every single one of them.
It all began with my parents Sarah. Someone killed my parents and there was
nothing, not a damn thing I could do about it. I lost my parents when I could
have been there for them.
Your parents would be very proud of the man you turned up as,
Sarah assured him as he let out a small laugh.
Yeah, Im sure, Kyle nodded slowly before shrugging his shoulders,
I just always wonder--If I wouldnt have run off to find you, if
I would have been there to save them. Just forget about it though. I just
lose everyone I love. My parents, Russ, Jade, and the only thing I keep thinking
is how I am somehow going to get you taken away from me. I love you so much--so
much and I know that I dont deserve to be happy.
Kyle, I love you no matter what is happening, Sarah hushed, running
her hand along the side of his face gently, You arent going to
lose me.
Just promise me that you will never leave me, Kyle sighed, kissing
her gently, Please dont ever leave me.
I wont leave you Kyle, Sarah promised, kissing him once
more, I will never leave you. I will never let go of you Kyle. I promise.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Cori, you actually came, Dave smiled widely as he opened the
door to see Diego and Cori before him. He reached out and wrapped his arms
around his sister tightly, Im so glad you came.
I would do anything for you big Dave, Cori replied, letting go
of him as she folded her arms out in front of her chest, Which is why
I am going to tell you that I think you are making the biggest mistake of
your life.
Here we go again, Dave rolled his eyes at his sisters comment
as he leaned against the wall, What is it this time Cori? What is your
complaint now?
You act like its a burden for me to care for my brother,
Cori shook her head slowly before going on, I just dont want to
see you the way you were when she first left you. Dave, you were a total mess
and how do you even know that little girl is yours?
Cori, have you seen her? Dave questioned before realizing he could
answer that himself. Yeah you have, which means you should be able to
see how much she truly looks like you when you were younger. She looks a lot
like you.
It could be just a coincidence Dave, Cori protested seeing Dave
shake his head slowly.
I dont think so, Dave replied looking towards Diego who
just seemed to be standing there and listening to the conversation, What
do you think Diego? Does Kayla look like Cori when she was younger?
I really dont know, Diego stuttered, shrugging his shoulders,
I really havent caught a long glance at Kayla.
You tell me when you see her, Dave saw Diego nod slowly before
turning his attention back to his little sister, Just please Cori--dont
ruin this. This is one of the happiest moments of my life and I dont
want anything to ruin this.
I wont ruin anything, Cori began, about to protest before
hearing the someone coming down the stairs.
Mommy, look, Kayla smiled, quickly walking down the stairs as
Carly followed, Its Cori. She came to see us. Cori, do like this
outfit?
It looks adorable on you sweetheart, Cori smiled as she bent down
and gave Kayla a hug, You look very beautiful today.
Thank you, Kayla giggled looking up at Diego, Who are you
Mr. Man.
My name is Diego, Diego replied, bending down to Kaylas
height, You look very pretty today.
Thank you Lego, Kayla smirked before turning back around towards
Dave and Carly, Are we going soon? Are we? I cant wait to go.
I am finally going to have a daddy.
Yeah, we are going soon, Dave nodded, looking up at Cori and Diego,
if you want two want to follow us--we are going to the downtown courts.
Well be right back, Carly and Kayla walked off into the
kitchen and Cori was about to say something more before Diego pulled her aside.
Before you try to convince your brother anymore, Diego paused
before thinking a second, Yeah, she does look like you. I remember.
Oh this is just great, Cori rolled her eyes before seeing Diego
look at her intently.
Think about it, Diego began, shaking his head slowly, Kayla
is happy about this whole thing. At least think about that.
He saw as she thought it over for a second. As she saw the three get ready,
she never said a word. This was going to be different.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
So you live here by yourself? Trisha asked taking in an inventory
of Michaels lavish apartment. While it wasnt much bigger than
Rias she noticed that hed had a few expensive looking antiques
around and near the kitchen area he had an oversized aquarium built into the
wall.
Yep, other than them, Michael nodded in confession motioning to
the fish that were inside his aquarium, Scooby and Shaggy are my roommates,
but thats it
This is a really nice place, Trisha spun around to face him again
seeing him near her. She couldnt help but notice the sexy smile on his
face or the way his eyes seemed to light up beside her. How shed never
noticed this hunk living so close to her sister was beyond her. She tilted
her head up to eye him more intently, So what is it you do Michael?
Im a medical researcher for BBK Pharmaceuticals, he explained
matter of fact before letting out a small laugh, which translates into
my spending most of my life in the lab pushing paperwork and ideas that take
a while to formulate into reality.
Sounds
um interesting, Trisha struggled for the right word.
In other words not exactly what you were expecting, he replied
with a knowing nod, Yeah a lot of women think its a pretty boring
career.
No I didnt say boring--just interesting
she paused
watching him turn to his aquarium, I guess Im just not used to
being around so many smart people. I mean I guess I should be considering
that Rias a doctor and all, but still
So what do you do Trisha? Michael questioned glancing over at
her once again. He watched her shift on her toes uneasily, nervousness balling
in the pit of her stomach.
Well, I was going to nursing school, but it just wasnt for me.
Now I dont know what Im doing. I guess working on getting my life
together, she shrugged her shoulders, That probably sounds pretty
stupid and shallow huh?
No not at all, he shook his head, I dont think any
of us ever truly have it together--at least not for a while. And those of
us who say they do, well theyre lying through their teeth. Im
still trying to figure it out.
You dont seem like a guy who is still figuring it out, she
noted eyeing him intently, I mean you seem pretty together here.
Youd be surprised at times, Michael let out a small laugh,
although I have to admit that this is probably the most of a conversation
Ive had with anyone in a long time out of work. Come to think of it
I dont think Ive even spoken to Ria as much.
Well Im just a big old chatterbox. Id keep talking and talking
and probably talking even more if I didnt have to worry about my stitches,
she explained bringing her hand up over her throat.
I see that, he opened his mouth considering asking her about the
stitches when there was a knock on the door. He looked over to it, That
must be the super.
Without another word he walked over to the front door inviting the small man
in. After explaining the situation the man readily agreed to help Trisha get
into Rias apartment again. Trisha followed the superintendent to Michaels
door, but stopped just before she left.
Thank you, she smiled up at him.
It was my pleasure, he nodded before offering up a smile of his
own, and remember if you ever get locked out again and Im around,
well dont hesitate to come knocking on my door.
I wont. I mean its not like Im planning on getting
locked out, but still
I appreciate your offer, she added nervously,
thanks it was nice.
Yeah it was. Good luck Trisha, Michael waved at her. Hopefully
Ill see you around.
Id like that, she replied with a wave giving him one last
look before leaving for her sisters apartment. While she hated to go,
she found herself wondering if maybe being at Rias wasnt so bad
after all. She turned back to look at Michaels door, but much to her
dismay hed already closed it. Still, the day had gone from terrifying
to a promising start. Meeting Michael had been the highlight of her week--maybe
even her month and it gave her something positive to focus on other than the
nightmare she went through. Yes meeting Michael was a godsend indeed, she
smiled to herself vowing to find more excuses to have more run ins with him
from here on out.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
We have to hold her in our hearts Seth, Kevin hushed, holding
onto Seth in his arms tightly as Seth fell apart in his arms, At least
we know she will be our guardian angel.
I dont wanted her to be my guardian angel Kevin, Seth stated,
biting down on his bottom lip, I want to hold her in my arms. I want
to be able to see her.
I know Seth, Kevin hushed, feeling his own heart skip a beat like
it was splitting in two, I wish I just could have been here longer.
I could have been with her.
She always knew you loved her Kevin, Seth replied, falling back
to the couch as Kevin sat next to him, There was never a doubt in her
mind. You were like our older brother, sometimes like our father figure.
If I could have been here though, Kevin began to ponder taking
in a deep breath, I just wish that I could have spent even more time
with you two. I could have been here and maybe this would not have happened.
No one is to blame for this you two, Ria squeezed both of their
shoulders lightly, No one could have stopped this from happening.
There is always something that could have stopped this, Kevin
pointed out with a small sigh, There is always a solution for something.
This isnt one of those things, Blake pointed out, hearing
the doorbell ring as Ria stepped forward.
Ill get it, Ria assured Blake as she opened the door and
frowned at the sight before her, Dont you think you have caused
enough trouble?
Oh, you have to be kidding me, Blake frowned, walking in behind
Ria to see Valerie standing before them, What in the world do you want
now?
I came because I am upset too, Valerie stated, taking a step forward
as Ria held her hand out--not daring to allow her in. I came to see
how everyone was doing.
Why dont you just leave, Blake frowned taking a step forward
before Ria held her back.
No, leave it to me, Ria scowled, taking a step forward--trying
to make some type of an intimidation.
Both of you move, Kevin ordered, standing up as they moved out
of the way of the door, What in the world is wrong with you Valerie?
I dont get what you are saying, Valerie frowned, seeing
Kevin shaking his head slowly at her dumb act.
You know, Jade just died, Kevin felt a bit of sadness and rage
inside his body, this isnt some step in a game that raises you
up. How could you be so inconsiderate Valerie? You are acting heartless and
hateful. Thinking that you can just waltz right in her because Jade is gone.
You think it is going to get you more points? I cant believe you Valerie,
people actually loved Jade. She was my cousin and Seth's sister. You would
think you would at least have a little more respect.
Kevin, Valerie frowned, acting like she was on the verge of tears
as she saw a muscle tighten in Kevins jaw from anger, I loved
Jade to. Ask Seth, he knew that I was close to her.
Come on Val, Kevin rolled his eyes before hearing Seth call out
from behind him.
Whatever
Seth sighed, leaning back into the couch, If
she wants to stay, let her stay. I dont really care.
Ria and Blake watched as Kevin shut the door and Valerie walked over to the
couch and sat down. They were both obviously thinking the same thing. What
had come over Seth? The look that Kevin spotted on Valeries face made
him believe what he thought about her was even more true than he thought.
Valerie thought she had just won some kind of victory, but she was far from
it.
Valerie, Kevin whispered in her ear, bending down from behind
the couch, If you make one wrong move--just one
I will have no
problem sending Ria on you? Got my point?
Right, Valerie nodded slowly as Kevin back away with a small smile.
Im glad we understand each other, Kevin sighed, sitting
between Seth and Valerie. There was no way that Valerie was going to be thinking
she won some brownie points because she didnt care about anyone, but
herself.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
So, let me get this all written down in my mind, Don began with
a small laugh, You like omelets--ham and cheese ones that is. You hate
onions and you like ketchup on your eggs.
Yep, thats me, Shannon nodded slowly as Don set up the plates
on the table for them. I am kind of weird if you haven't noticed. Like
an odd bird.
I think I noticed a tiny bit, Don joked, setting some more things
out on the table, I think we all have our little weird things that make
us who we are.
Well, that is true I guess, she agreed, sitting down in the seat
that Don held out for her, I really havent found your big weirdness
though.
Youll know some of them eventually, Don promised with a
small laugh, taking a seat across from Shannon, I have some pretty big
things you dont know about me.
Im sure, Shannon rolled her eyes before taking a bite from
the food he had made, Oh--I just found one thing you are good at. Cooking.
You are good.
Thanks, I think, he shrugged with a small laugh before thinking
for a second, I guess I have just been cooking breakfast for Matt so
long--that I am kind of just used to it.
What about Matt? Matt questioned, entering the kitchen and letting
out a big yawn. Shannon, youre here.
Hey Matt, Shannon smiled, seeing Don get up and help Matt into
one of the chairs for breakfast, So, how are you feeling this morning?
I am just tired, Matthew yawned once more, You are eating
breakfast with us today?
Yep, Don answered for her, sitting back down in his seat, Shes
staying here for just a little bit.
Are you going to eat breakfast with us everyday? Matt excitedly
questioned seeing Shannons eyes get wide. Even better--are you
going to be with us everyday? For lunch? Dinner?
Slow down little guy, Don chuckled, looking up at Shannon with
his intense blue eyes, One step at a time. She needs to take it all
in one big step before taking all that in.
Can she step any quicker? Matt questioned with a frown, looking
over at her. I like playing games with her, so it would be fun to have
her around all the time.
Youre right, Don agreed, as Shannons eyes looked away
from his, It would be perfect.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Brant pulled the car into the drive noting the silence that still hung over
his wife. He thought back to when shed walked back into the house with
Grady at her side. He wasnt quite sure where theyd come from,
but shortly after their return Avery had suggested that they leave the Denton
home and go back to the mansion. It wasnt a suggestion that Brant could
argue with given how uncomfortable he was in Elliot and Cheryls home,
but now as he looked to Avery, he couldnt help but wonder what it was
that she was thinking. He knew she was upset about Grady, yet she hadnt
said a word.
They walked into the mansion and Brant reached out to her, touching her shoulders
gently. Saying nothing Avery turned around to face him again tears burning
behind her eyes.
Hey, Brant spoke smoothly pulling her into an embrace. He felt
her break down into tiny sobs over his chest as he held her.
I just dont understand how someone could be so cruel and heartless,
Avery cried out holding onto him as if shed never let go. How
could Susan take the world away from all of us? Why would she do something
so awful? So evil?
I dont know, but I wish that there had been a way to stop her.
I wish like hell that you and Grady werent hurting like this
Brant began sympathetically.
I hate to see him like this. He loved Jade so much, Avery confessed
tilting her head up to look at him, She was having his baby. They were
going to be a family, but Susan took that away from them just like she took
Russ away from me when she planted that bomb at the airport. I cant
understand how she would do that. What was she possibly thinking in doing
such a horrible thing?
I dont know Avery, Brant brushed his thumb over her cheekbone
wiping at her tears, I wish I did, but even in knowing why she did what
she did doesnt erase her sins. Theyre something that none of us
can erase no matter how hard we wish we could.
I just think
Avery stopped herself tilting her head up to
see the concern behind his dark eyes, Brant, I hate to see Grady like
this.
So do I. I hate thinking whats happened to him. I hate to even
imagine what it is hes going through, but more so I hate how this has
hurt you, he held her cheek in his hand, I hate to see you so
upset Avery. When I think of all the trivial things that were happening between
us before this happened, well it makes me feel guilty as hell over it. I feel
like a complete and total jerk for acting the way that I did. When I think
of how I lashed out at you--how I treated Grady so coldly
Its in the past, Avery looked away.
Even so its put a strain on us. Avery, Ive been inconsiderate
and self centered about all of this. When I think about what Gradys
been going through--about how he must be feeling about losing Jade, well,
I cant even begin to imagine how I would feel in losing you like that.
It would be the end of me, he paused feeling guilt sweep overtake him,
and like Grady I would try to move heaven and Earth to find a way to
get her back. I wouldnt stop fighting to have you back home again and
I cant fault you for wanting to help him with that
A lot of good it did, she let out a small sniffle, now that
Jades gone theres no turning back. We cant help him
Maybe not like we wanted to, but well be there for him. Well
both do what we can to ease him through this, Brant promised squeezing
her in his arms again. He kissed her temple feeling her tremble in his arms.
Just hold me Brant, Avery pleaded with him keeping her arms around
him, Lets just forget about everything else and hold onto one
another. I need that tonight. I need you to make me believe that somehow,
some day everything will be okay again.
It will be, he promised curling his finger underneath her chin
to lift her eyes to his. It wont be tomorrow, but one day things
will find a way of turning around for us again--for all of us.
That seems so far away right now, she replied with a small sigh
feeling the warmth of his arms around her, Im so afraid Brant.
When I think of all thats happened--of what Gradys going through
Well be there for him, he promised her leaning in to kiss
her tenderly, Well do what we can to help him.
Even though it may never be enough, she thought to herself holding
onto her husband. She closed her eyes listening to the sounds of his heart
beating beside hers as she said a silent prayer that one day life would be
easier on all of them. That one day all the pain and misery would somehow
see light at the end of the tunnel.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Grady sat in his old bedroom long after hed convinced his parents that he would be alright for the night. It took some heavy convincing on his part, but now as he sat alone in his room, his thoughts lingered to the time when hed brought Jade home with him for Christmas--then it felt as if their lives had happiness and lots of promise waiting around the corner for them.
What are you doing over there? Cheryl asked in a soft voice as she closed the distance between them.
I was just watching Grady sleep, Jade admitted with a smile as she looked back to the man in the bed, Hes so peaceful when hes sleeping. I just like to watch him.
I used to watch him when he was little, Cheryl smiled as she directed her gaze to her son, I guess I can pass that torch to you now.
Cant a guy try to sleep here? Grady grumbled in a teasing tone as he turned and glanced back towards the women watching him.
Merry Christmas, Cheryl greeted with a smile.
Merry Christmas, He replied with a smile before he focused his eyes on Jade, To you too.
Jade smiled as Cheryl glanced between them.
Coffee will be ready when you two are, Cheryl spoke softly before she stepped out of the room and closed the door behind her.
Come here, Grady requested as he extended his hand to her.
Jade stood and placed her hand in his as he pulled her onto the bed along side him. He hugged her close to him as she giggled softly. She squeezed him in return and smiled, Youre feeling very warm and fuzzy this morning, arent you?
Yeah, I suppose I am, He confessed with a happy sigh, But holding you like this makes everything in the world seem perfect this morning.
Hmm, She grinned as she raised her face to look at him, I could get used to this side of you.
He eased his fingers across her cheek, I love you, Jade.
I love you too, Grady, She spoke as she searched his eyes for some sign of what was going on within his mind.
He smiled as he gently lowered his lips to hers. He caressed her lips with his, lightly teasing her with the soft stroke of his tongue. Jade eased her fingers through his hair as she accepted his kiss and invited more from him.
If only things couldve stayed that way for them. If only he hadnt
lost her, but now as he lay back on the bed thinking about the way it felt
to be holding her at Christmas time the only thing that he could think of
was the emptiness hed felt in knowing that the woman he loved was gone
and she was never coming back. Nothing he could do would ever make it right
again. Hed lost the one and only woman who ever truly made him want
to become a better person. Closing his eyes he thought back to all the times
theyd shared with one another and he allowed him to weep for the past
hed cheated them out of in his bitterness--for the present when hed
missed her like crazy and for the future he knew hed never have with
her and their unborn child.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I cant believe that I am actually going through with this,
Cori groaned as she saw Dave waiting for Carly as they took their seats, How
could I let him get himself into this?
Because you love him and you want him to be happy, Diego pointed
out, still talking to her as Carly joined Daves side with Kayla at her
side. You want that little girl to be happy too.
Of course I do, Cori agreed in a whisper, looking at Kayla grab
onto Daves hand tightly, I just dont want my brother getting
hurt. Kayla is adorable and I would love having her as a niece, I just dont
know whats next.
Thats the thing, Diego pointed out, hearing Dave begin to
say his vows, Life takes so many twists and turns--never letting you
know whats next. One day you could be in love with someone and then
the next you could wake up and realize that you love someone else. It could
happen.
Yeah, I know, Cori frowned, looking towards the front as she saw
the two face each other.
It was time when the priest asked for objections and she thought long and
hard about it. It was a little long, but if Diego wasnt there--it wouldnt
have been that hard. She thought it over for a second before seeing the way
Diego was looking at her. She couldnt ruin this for her brother.
You may kiss the bride, the priest announced as Cori and Diego
watched on, seeing Dave lean forward and kiss Carly lightly.
I love you, Dave whispered, leaning his forehead up against Carlys
before picking up Kayla in his arms, I love you so much too.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
...to be continued...