Episode 240
Hey, how are you feeling? Ria questioned walking up to where
Kevin was standing. He just seemed to be standing in corner after the end
of the memorial, staring out. You alright?
Im fine, Kevin assured her with a small frown, looking up
into her worried filled eyes, Trust me--Im fine.
If you say so, Ria sighed as Kevin leaned back into the wall.
He obviously had a lot on his mind, she could just tell by the look on his
face. Whats bothering you besides the memorial? I know something
must be bothering you.
Well, Kevin thought for a moment before shaking his head, I
guess I just feel guilty that I didnt tell my best friend where I was
or what happened. She has been nothing but good to me, and I dont tell
her about this.
So, thats whats bugging you, Ria grabbed his hand
in hers, running her thumb over the top his hand, Why didnt you
tell her about this? Im sure she would be there for you.
Thats the point, Kevin shook his head slowly, thinking back
to how close him and Angie are, I know that she would be here for me.
I guess the only reason that I didnt tell her was that she already had
so much on her hands and I didnt want her to get stuck with another
thing.
Stuck? Kevin, you think that she would feel stuck with this? Ria
questioned, as his eyes met hers. If this best friend of yours feels
stuck when she should be there for you--then she is no friend at all. I know
she probably isnt like that, so why dont you just call her and
tell her.
Well, Kevin began, taking his cell phone from his pocket and turning
it on. He had already gotten eight messages from Angie just today. I
dont know why, but I guess I just dont feel comfortable calling
her.
By the looks of it, Ria looked down at his phone noticing how
many messages he had, she seems to be worried about you. Why dont
you just call her and let her know that you're alright. Tell her what is going
on--Im sure she will understand.
No, not right now, Kevin declared, shaking his head. He would
call her later and let her know everything, but he wasnt ready to do
it right now. I just cant do it right now.
Alright, if thats what you want to do, Ria shrugged with
a small frown before shrugging her shoulders, It might feel a little
bit better if you let her in on something. You may not feel as guilty. Ill
be right back.
Alright, Kevin nodded slowly, looking down towards the ground.
Ria was right, he should have called Angie already and he should call her
now, but he couldnt do it. Something inside of him just didnt
want her to worry. She already had her own problems to deal with. His eyes
raised up from the ground, looking out by the door seeing a woman walk in.
Angie?
He shook his head pinching the bridge of his nose before looking back up to
see if he was just dreaming, but the woman he thought was Angie was already
gone. He must have been dreaming, or something.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I just cant believe this is happening, Diane began as her
and Seth took a seat on one of the benches, I never imagined this happening
now. Actually, I never imagined this happening.
That makes two of us, Seth pointed out with a small sigh, leaning
back into the sturdy bench, I just dont think I wanted to imagine
my baby sister being dead. I guess on my mind was the thought of her being
home and coming back safe. Obviously my wishes arent going to come true.
You never know, Diane thought for a second before shaking her
head, I can promise you one thing--Susan will not get away with what
she has done to Jade. She cant hide for much longer and once the police
find her--she is going to burn.
I really dont care if Susan burns, he declared with a small
frown, shaking his head slowly, Whatever happens to Susan isnt
going to bring Jade back. So what makes it better knowing that Susan is going
to jail?
The fact that she will never be able to hurt someone else again,
she offered with a small frown, It may at least feel better knowing
the person who hurt your sister is going to rot in jail for what she did.
She will never be able to be free like this again.
I guess, he shrugged, taking in a deep breath after feeling her
squeeze his shoulder lightly, I just rather not think about Susan at
this moment. This moment is supposed to be dedicated to Jade, not the person
who ruined her life.
Jade would be very happy to know that you were here for her Seth,
Diane assured him with a small smile, I know that she loved you and
I know that she would be encouraging you to be strong. To live a happy life.
I guess we both know her a little to well, he decided with a small
chuckle. There was always going to be a quarry in his whole mind about being
happy though. I just dont think I will be able to take this off
my mind. I dont know how I am going to live without her. It is going
to be so different.
You arent going to be without her Seth, Diane pointed out,
grabbing Seths hand in hers to place it right above his heart. She
will always live on throughout you--that is if you let it happen. You just
have to live off the happy memories you had with Jade. Dont let her
get away from your heart, because thats the true time that you will
forget her.
Thanks Diane, Seth sighed as he leaned forward and hugged her
lightly in his arms, I appreciate you being here for me and for Jade.
I wouldnt miss this Seth, Diane replied, patting him on
the back lightly, I just had to be here for my best friend. The both
of you were like brother and sister to me, so now I am going to warn you.
I am going to be on your butt all the time. Jade would want me to promise
to take care of you, so I am going to live up to that promise mister.
Oh great, Seth let out a small laugh before wiping at his stinging
eyes, I just hope that Jade is in a better place where she finally gets
to have somewhat of peace in her life. Wherever that might be.
Im sure she is Seth, Diane whispered, rubbing his shoulder
lightly. In fact, I know she is.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Thank you both for being here today, Blake started approaching
her brother and Avery, It means a lot to Seth that you are here to honor
his sisters memory. This is hard on everyone and
This is where we belong, Avery added with a sympathetic expression,
Jade was a friend of mine and Im going to miss her. She was a
wonderful woman.
She really was, Blake nodded in agreement turning to her brother,
who now had his eyes on his pager. Brant?
Im sorry, Brant apologized looking up. He eyed the room
for a moment before turning to his sister, I hate to do this, but I
have to take this call. Its urgent and if I dont answer
Of course, Blake nodded as he leaned in to kiss her cheek gently.
Ill be right back, he promised walking away from her and
leaving her and Avery alone with one another.
Silence followed his exit as the two women stood beside one another at a loss.
Avery searched the room for Grady as Blake cleared her throat again to recapture
Averys attention.
Look, um, I know you and I havent exactly gotten off on the right
foot with one another here, but I think I owe you an apology, Blake
cleared her throat uneasily. She saw the way Averys eyes widened at
that admission and she explained further, I wasnt exactly thrilled
to discover that you and Brant were married. I mean I really didnt think
that you were any good for him, but now, well Im glad were able
to put those personal differences aside and think about what matters. I know
how hard you worked to find Jade when she was missing
I just wish that I couldve been able to help bring her home before
this happened, Avery sighed heavily straining to fight the right words,
and I dont blame you for your reservations about my marrying Brant.
I know that I havent exactly been the model wife, but
You make him happy, Blake cut her off abruptly, and thats
what really matters. Despite the fact that Brant always acts like hes
tough and in control, hes really like a teddy bear. Hes all big
and bad on the outside you see, but inside hes just a whole mess of
emotions and concerns. Hes an incredible man and I just want him to
be happy.
So do I Blake, Avery added with a thoughtful expression, Your
brother has been very good to me and the last thing I want is to make him
feel like he made a mistake. Hes a wonderful husband
And a great brother, Blake attached to Averys statement,
Id do anything for him and vice versa. Hes been good to
me and I know how hard hes fought to find happiness in his life. Hes
been burned by love before and
And this time it wont be the same, Avery tried to assure
Blake knowing full well that she was far from earning Blakes trust.
Yeah, well Heather made a lot of promises too, but they didnt
mean a thing when she hopped into bed with that Hollywood bigwig. I mean sure
Brant will say that it didnt matter--that it was irrelevant and nothing
of consequence in the long run, but when Heather did that he was upset. It
hurt him a lot.
I know it did, Avery nodded remembering the big explosions that
followed Brant and Heathers over publicized breakup.
I would just hate to see him somehow stumble down that road again. Given
all hes been through this past year with love and business and even
helping Ken and I, he deserves a break, Blake prompted further, her
eyes searching the room in an involuntary attempt to locate Seth.
At this point I think we all do, Avery replied knowing that it
had been a hard year. Being at Jades memorial was proof of that, but
hopefully everyone would find a way to endure even after all of the horrible
blows that fate had put upon them.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
How are you holding up Grady, Gabe asked looking to the man before
him. While he knew he really shouldnt have had to ask the question,
Gabe knew full well that Grady looked like he needed to talk. It had been
obvious earlier during his arrival at the church when the priest had been
speaking to the group. There was so much left to say and to feel about the
woman who had been ripped from this world in such a cruel fashion.
Id be lying if I said I was okay, Grady confessed to Jades
friend, I just cant believe this is real. I mean one minute she
and I were planning on the rest of our lives together and now
It just
doesnt seem like this is really happening.
I know what you mean. I can still remember spending time with her--the
long talks that we had with one another when you were in jail. She would go
on for hours about how much she loved you and she just had this sparkle in
her eyes. I knew how important you were to her and I have to admit I was almost
envious of that kind of love, Gabe revealed remembering his friend fondly,
Jade was an incredible woman and my daughter thought the world of her.
Jade thought the world of Brittany as well, Grady smiled back
at him, She loved children and I know that she really had fun when she
was around Brittany. Even though wed never really talked about it, I
knew that Jade was looking forward to being a mother--to our settling down
and having a family
Silence followed as Gabe thought back to the night that he was with Jade when
shed discovered she was pregnant. Shed been so excited and full
of hope.
I know you and Grady obviously werent planning this, but if you are pregnant, Gabe started reaching for a couple of mugs for them.
Then it opens up a whole new world of complications, Jade sighed bringing her hand in over her abdomen, Not that I dont want this, because in a strange way I do, but
But youre scared, Gabe motioned for her to sit at the table, Youre afraid of what comes next, huh?
Well yes, that and then theres she paused clearing her throat uneasily, Gabe, there are so many other things going on here. Things that Ive never told anyone before--not even Grady
Jade, if you want to talk, then you know Im here for you, he returned to the kitchen table to take a seat across from her, but if youd rather not
No, I think I want to, she insisted reaching out for her steaming mug, In my own way I think I need to.
Okay, he reached out to squeeze her hand supportively, talk to me sweetheart.
Its just she paused contemplating her words as a lump of emotion built in the back of her throat, Its just so complicated you know. I mean sure I guess I kind of always knew that this would come up, but
But you werent expecting to find motherhood threatening to come at a time like this, Gabe offered watching her features darken a bit.
It seems to come at times when Im just not prepared for it, Jade paused choked up on emotion. Her eyes misted over as she began to divulge a secret that only Seth had known the truth about, I told you that when I was fourteen I was raped
I know, he nodded before squeezing her hand supportively, and that was a horrible, horrible ordeal for you to have gone through. I wish like hell you didnt have to face something like that
Yeah, well I did and just when I thought the nightmare was over, well a short time later I discovered that I was pregnant, Jade confessed painfully, At the time I was in a strong state of denial. I had a nervous breakdown after what those monsters did to me. Sure, Seth did all he could to try to make the whole situation easier on me, but then when I found out about the baby, it was like I was living through the rape all over again
Oh Jade, Gabes eyes glistened with emotion, I had no idea
No one did, she admitted with a painful expression, Seth and I were the only ones who really knew about the baby. At the time Id been taken to the hospital things were different than they are now. It was a different place and time and when I ended up being pregnant, well I had one of two choices. I could either keep my baby or I could terminate the pregnancy. Either way it was something that I knew would change my life forever. Even now when I think about it
Oh Jade, Gabe got up from where hed been seated to move over to the table and embrace her. She broke off into tears of anguish as he held her, Im so sorry.
I just never thought that something like that would happen to me. That I would end up having to go through something like that and then to be pregnant I mean my God I was only fourteen, she continued shuddering at the memory, I remember hating them all--hating the world--hating my father for what hed done to me and hating what those men had turned me into. My life wasnt mine any longer and I resented that baby. I hated what was growing inside of me and then when I had to make a choice
Jade, Im sure that you did what was right for you, Gabe tried to soothe her tears knowing full well that pain like what shed endured would never completely fade away.
I made an appointment for an abortion, Jade explained, her voice hollow and empty, I knew it was the only choice I had in the matter. Seth and I argued about it, but it was what I had to do. I couldnt be a mother then. I couldnt have that baby.
Of course, he nodded, you were only a child yourself.
It was unfair and it never, ever shouldve happened to me, Jades voice grew empty as she thought back, but then when I went in for my appointment, they did an ultrasound and I saw the baby. I saw the life growing inside of me. Gabe, despite how much I hated being pregnant, I saw my child and that changed things for me. I knew then that I couldnt go through with the abortion. I couldnt kill my baby when what happened wasnt the babys fault.
So youre saying that you Gabes eyes widened with obvious surprise.
She nodded, I wanted to keep my baby. Even though Id been so bitter about it at first, I decided to stay pregnant. Seth promised hed help me with what was going on and we left town. We went to stay with an aunt of mine while Seth worked to help me prepare for the baby. God, he gave up so much in order to help me through this situation. I mean he had a scholarship in the making to go to one of the Big Ten colleges for football, but he threw it away to help me and my child even knowing where my baby had come from. Hes an amazing man and Im lucky to have a brother like him but even with all Seths help it wasnt enough. I tried so hard, but it just wasnt good enough
Her voice tapered off as Gabe noticed the strange expression that crossed over her features. It was as if she was reliving her own private hell all over again.
I carried the baby almost completely to term, but then there were complications and tears streamed down her face, It was in part to my being so young and then after the ordeal and the breakdown I tried so hard but
Oh Jade, Gabe felt her hugging him tighter than ever.
My son died because I wasnt able to get out of what they did to me. I hated him in the beginning--hated him so very much that it ended up killing him when I finally realized how wrong I was Jade sobbed into his chest, I lost my baby because I wasnt strong enough.
No, Jade, thats not what happened, Gabe shook his head as he tilted her head up towards him. He wiped at her tears, It just wasnt the right time. Your son knew that as much as you loved him his place wasnt in this world. Hes with the angels, you know?
I know, she nodded biting back on her tears, but after that, I just never thought--I mean I never believed that I would be facing this again. I mean sure okay maybe I thought about what it would be like to be a mother and have a family, but for so long I blocked out what happened. I went on living like my son never existed. I went on pretending that I could ignore what happened, but then when I started to suspect that I could be pregnant
It call came rushing back to you, he noted watching her face twist with emotion.
It sounds crazy, doesnt it? Jade sniffled, I mean here I am at one of the worst possible times in my life wondering if I could be pregnant and my boyfriend is in jail with the possibility of never getting out.
Thats not going to happen, he tried to assure her, Grady will beat this.
Im just not so sure. Gabe, when I was pregnant the last time things were so wrong. My child was created out of hatred and rage, but with this baby--if I am pregnant, then that means that the love Grady and I have with one another is responsible for this, a small smile spread over her features, Itll be a life created out of love and what we have
Which is all the more reason why its right for you if you are in fact pregnant, Gabe wiped at her tears, Maybe fate is trying to give you and Grady a reason to believe.
But if Im not and this is all for not Jade trailed off, dropping her gaze to the floor, I mean I know all the reasons why its not the right time, yet Im so afraid if Im not pregnant--that it means that Im being punished all over again. That somehow Im paying for what happened with my son
Jade, you did all you could for your son. Im sure of it, Gabe insisted with a small sigh, Sweetheart, I see the way you are with my daughter and there isnt a doubt in my mind that you gave all you had for your boy. Even under the circumstances that surrounded you, I know you and your heart. Youre full of a lot of love Jade and Im sure that if you are in fact pregnant, then youre going to give that child all of whats inside of you. Youre going to be a wonderful mother and whether its today or a few years from now, I have no doubt in my mind that you and Grady will have that family that youve dreamt about. Youll have your happiness Jade.
I hope youre right, she leaned into him hearing the alarm go off alerting her that it was time to find out the answer to the question that had haunted her. Clearing her throat, she felt her fingers tingle a bit with nervousness before she looked to Gabe, I guess the mystery is now over huh?
So it would seem, he tucked a strand of her dark hair back behind her ear, Are you ready for this?
Ready as Im ever going to be, Jade admitted with a weak smile hoping that whatever the results told her that she would be able to find a way to make it work.
As shed told Gabe the last time this came up, shed had mixed emotions, but now, well now the idea of having Gradys baby was something that would change her life forever. Before Grady shed known a life of pain and heartbreak, yet even in facing what theyd gone through with one another, she had to admit that in loving him shed finally found a slice of heaven. They had something together that shed always longed for and as she made her way back into the bathroom ready to see what fate had in store for her, she wondered if maybe just maybe things would start looking up for them.
Well, Gabe questioned from the hallway watching as she reached for the test ready to see what they had to tell her, Jade
She eyed it for a long moment feeling as if her breath had been stolen from her throat. Her eyes misted over and as she felt Gabe reach for her shoulder, she couldnt help but be bowled over with emotion.
Jade, what is it, he asked watching as she spun around to face him once again.
Gabe, the test is positive, she blurted out with a tearful smile, Im pregnant.
Youre pregnant, Gabe had repeated pulling her immediately into his arms, Oh Jade, this is wonderful news.
Im having Gradys baby, Jade had practically squealed unable to quell her enthusiasm. She practically leapt into Gabes arms feeling him spin her around the room before her voice raised with emotion, Im having Gradys baby.
Yes, you are, Gabe had laughed entertaining the notion with her as theyd had their own private celebration.
Do you know what this means? What it will mean to the future,
Jade practically squealed feeling as if this news was a sign of things to
come.
It means that good things are right around the corner. Thats always
what a child brings. It brings hope and miracles along with it. Gradys
going to be home soon Jade and when he is, you two are going to make the most
beautiful family with one another, Gabe encouraged her pulling her into
his arms.
Im having Gradys baby. Were really doing it,
Jade squealed excitedly feeling Gabe pick her up and spin her around the room
as it seemed that all was right for the first time in a long time in the world.
Gabe returned to the moment, his sad eyes now upon Grady, Im
so sorry that dream was taken from you Grady. I know how much Jade wanted
for the two of you to have that family together. She wouldve made a
wonderful mother.
Yes she wouldve, Grady couldnt help but smile as tears
filled his eyes, She had so much love and so much heart, which is why
its so hard for me to accept that shes gone. To think that when
I leave here, I wont be able to hold her in my arms again. I wont
be able to plan for the future with her and our baby. I wont ever see
my child grow up--watch my son or daughter have a chance to experience life
all because of someone I once let into my life. Susan stole that from me and
I can never get it back.
Gabe watched Grady break down into tears and instinctively he reached out
to embrace Grady. Granted they werent the best of friends, but to see
him so broken up--to know what Grady had lost, it only intensified Gabes
sadness as he was well aware of the shattered dreams that you could never
truly have back. Embracing Grady, he felt the stoic man fall to pieces in
his arms and in that moment Gabe find himself wondering how life could be
so cruel to rip away the one and only happiness Jade and Grady had ever known.
It was just so very wrong to take away that chance for a new beginning after
so much pain had surrounded Jades young life.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Ben walked up behind Valerie after spotting her across the room. He tapped
on her shoulder gently watching her turn around to face him. She looked up
at him with wide brown eyes before offering up a small smile.
Ben, hey, she spoke up in a low voice.
I see you made it to the memorial, he replied watching the tears
glistening behind her eyes, Im glad that you did.
I couldnt just not be here considering that I lost a good friend
of mine, Valerie sighed emphatically, I mean I know Jade and I
werent nearly as close as we used to be in our younger years, but she
was so special in my life. She was there for me growing up and I viewed her
like a kid sister.
I know, Ben rubbed his hands together, I just cant
seem to get it through my head that shes gone. Even now when I think
of all the times we all just kicked back and hung out, I never thought that
any of us would be gone from this world--especially not Jade. Shes always
been such a breath of fresh air and
And in losing her, its like the world is just falling to pieces
around us, Valerie nodded in agreement, her eyes scanning over the room
for any hopes of spotting Seth, Im just so worried about Seth.
I dont know how this is going to effect him. He and Jade were more than
just brother and sister. They were the best of friends and I know how much
he loved her.
This hasnt been easy on him at all, Ben replied shaking
his head at the thought, This hasnt been easy on anyone especially
considering how much Jade had ahead of her.
When I think of how much Seth gave up in his own life to make Jades
life easier, it burns me to no end to think that all of his efforts wound
up in vain, she added with a heavy sigh.
I dont think they ended up in vain, Ben couldnt help
but comment, considering how far Jade went in her life, I think it only
proved how much he cared about her.
Well thats what I was trying to say, she corrected herself
quickly, I guess what I meant to say was that I hate to think that she
was so young and had so much to accomplish ahead of her, yet she wasnt
given the opportunity to do so. It isnt fair.
No, it isnt, Ben agreed wholeheartedly. I mean after
everything this still feels like its not real--like this cant
be happening to one of us.
We were all so close, she added remembering the time when shed
been part of the group--long before shed run off to chase her modeling
dreams. Things felt so much easier back then. Everything just kind of
fell into place with Seth and I, but now, well I feel like were strangers.
I feel like were worlds apart, but I know hes hurting. I know
that he needs me more than ever and it bothers me that I cant give him
what he needs.
He knows that youre here, Ben glanced down at her, Believe
it or not thats something that matters even if you two arent close
like you once were. Your being here today and showing your support is something
that will stick in his mind.
You really think so, she asked hopefully. Perhaps a little too
bit hopefully, she reminded herself in an attempt to try to tone it down a
bit, I mean I know he was so angry with me before when I left, but maybe
now--maybe we can try on fixing the damage that was done between us.
It was a lifetime ago Val, Ben looked to her again, I think
that old wound is ancient history. I mean you did what you needed to in order
to follow your dreams and Seth did what he could to find his.
Even so the fact that we were married and together, well we had a love
that shouldnt have been ignored. I was chasing the wrong dream and I
had it all with Seth. The day we got married
she started remembering
clearly when theyd tied the knot.
Was something you both were too drunk to realize what it was that you
were doing. I mean lets face it Val, Ben eyed her intently, Seth
wasnt what you were looking for. You both just kind of fell into that
old adage that leads you to believe that good friendship can lead to romance.
Sometimes it works, other time it doesnt. When you two actually did
wind up with one another, none of us really believed you were serious.
Why do you say that? she frowned at his confession.
Well, for starters you were both buddies. I mean sure that doesnt
mean you couldnt be lovers, but it just seemed awkward. One day you
were pals, then the next you slept together, then blew it off. After that,
well I knew Seth had a thing for you, but then youd ran off with that
quarterback. What was his name again? Ben glanced over at her again.
What does it matter? she folded her arms in front of her chest
with an impatient huff. I always knew that Seth was the one.
Hmm, it never seemed like that, Ben scratched his chin lightly,
especially after you started seeing that basketball star and then that
guy on the hockey team. I think after that Seth realized that your sleeping
together probably wasnt the smartest of moves
Ben, it wasnt like that, Valerie curled her lip in a pout.
I loved Seth, but I was afraid to commit to what was happening with
us. It wasnt until our wedding night that I realized how lucky I was.
I was just too stupid to stay in town and fight for what I wanted. I took
the job working on that damned shoot and after that, well I was too embarrassed
to come back to town and admit I was wrong. I let my pride get in the way
and
And it worked out for the best, Ben reminded her keeping a careful
watch at her eyes, I mean you were able to get to travel the world,
have the career of your dreams and Seth found Blake. Ive honestly never
seen him more happy than he has been when hes with her.
I highly doubt hes happy right now, Valerie scowled immediately
hating Bens support of Seth and Blakes relationship.
Blakes a good person Val, Ben commented with a shrug, Shes
like a sister to me and I honestly cant think of two people more perfect
for one another. I mean, yeah okay, theres obviously not going to be
happiness at a time like this given what happened to Jade, but I know that
together they will pull through this.
Yeah whatever, Valerie rolled her eyes seeking out Seth along
the way. She spotted him in the far corner with Blake at his side, no doubt
eating up this position in his life. It made Valerie want to vomit considering
that she was Seths wife--not Blake. But Blake could enjoy it now because
it simply wasnt going to last. Valerie would be sure of it!
Seths moved on and obviously hes not the only one,
Ben noted not wanting to dwell on why they were truly gathered at the memorial,
So tell me who is the guy youve been hanging around with? I saw
you walk in together and
Hes nobody, Valerie curled her lip in a pout. Hes
just a friend.
A friend huh? Ben arched a curious brow, What kind of friend?
None thats really worth chatting about, she waved her hand
dismissively unable to keep her eyes off of Seth and Blake who were now holding
onto one another. Seeing them together made her blood boil and she promised
herself that one way or another she would find a way to put a stop to their
oh so nauseating romance.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Diane stood at the back of the chapel unable to refrain from falling to pieces
at the thought of losing the only real sister shed ever known. Sure,
Deidra was her sister, but with Jade, she was someone who had always been
there--someone who had always found a way to make things right when the world
was falling to pieces. Jade was the one person in the world that meant the
most to Diane and it felt as if a huge chunk had been ripped out of her heart.
Unable to hold back her tears Diane let her head drop forward as her grief
consumed her.
Hey, she heard a whisper as she felt a hand on her shoulder. Instinctively
she turned into the welcoming arms of the man behind her. She couldnt
stop thinking about Jade--about all that theyd lost now that Jade had
been taken from her. It wasnt fair. It wasnt right at all and
now all she could do was sob over the one true friend shed lost in her
life.
Its okay beautiful, she heard a voice whisper and suddenly
she knew it wasnt Bens arms shed fallen into. Tilting her
head upward Diane saw JTs concerned eyed upon her. She practically leapt
out of his arms as her tears of grief transformed to a fit of rage.
What the hell are you doing here? she hissed perhaps a bit too
loudly. She looked around the room quickly before dropping her voice a little,
You have no right to be here!
No right? JT repeated with surprised eyes, Diane how can
you say that? All I was trying to do was comfort you and
I dont need your comfort just like I dont need you coming
here and destroying my best friends memory by making a mockery of her
memorial, Diane snapped at him clenching her fists at her sides.
A mockery? he repeated with obvious offense, You know while
most people would love to forget it, I cared about Jade too.
Yeah right, Diane rolled her eyes, The only thing you care
about is annoying the hell out of me and making my life miserable.
As much as Id love to let you think you have that honor Diane,
the truth to the matter is that I cared about Jade very much, JT frowned
down at her, his agitation outweighing his longing to get her back in his
life, For your information Jade was good to me at a time when no one
else couldve cared about me one way or another. She and I dated for
a while even if the rest of this world would like to forget that.
Oh they havent forgotten, she glared up at him, but
they just excuse that moment in time and pass it off as a moment of weakness
on Jades end. She only was around you because she felt pity on you and
for the record it wasnt dating.
No, JT argued with her, it was more than that. She was my
friend when you broke my heart. She was with me when you ran off after Andy
and I cared about her.
You dont have a caring or compassionate bone in your body. The
only reason you slept with her was to get back at me, but it didnt work
JT. She saw right through you and you repulsed her just like you repulse me,
Diane spat in his face harshly, Your being here only proves how far
from the truth you are about your life. Neither Jade nor I wanted you around
and that hasnt changed. Youd be the last person she wants here.
No Diane, JT mouthed with a scowl, Unlike you Jade wasnt
afraid to admit she liked me. She was honest enough to admit that she didnt
think I was half bad which is more than I can say for a self-centered, egotistical
twit like you. Unlike you and your self-absorbed obsessive side, Jade had
a heart and an honesty about her that made her a woman you couldnt help
but love. You on the other hand, well if I didnt have this thing for
you like I do, then I wouldnt bother with you.
Why dont you do us both a favor and let go of your so called thing
and stay out of my life from here on out, Diane snarled at him before
turning around to run off in a haste.
If only it were that easy, JT sighed heavily reminding himself
that Diane was grieving right now. Yes, he was angry with her--sometimes he
even found himself hating her, but this wasnt about him and Diane. This
was about Jade and whether or not anyone else liked it, he was here to pay
his respects. Unlike Valerie, JT wasnt going to be all about his own
agenda. He was here to honor Jades memory and that was what mattered
today. Looking to the front of the chapel at the photo the family had set
up, JT vowed to pay his last respects to one of the few people in Coral Valley
who had truly treated him like a person.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Kyle? Sarah called out Kyles name as she went back to where
she was seated earlier with Kyle. She thought that he would be in the front
already with the other people, but he wasnt. In fact, he was in the
same spot and it seemed like he never moved at all--he was just staring out
at something. She reached out to touch his hand gently. Kyle, are you
okay?
This isnt right, Kyle whispered, his eyes traveling down
towards the ground as he shook his head, This really isnt right.
What isnt right? Sarah questioned, noticing the way his
dark eyes looked up into hers after she asked the question.
This whole thing, Kyle replied with a small frown, This
should have never happened. Its just not right. Jade didnt deserve
any of this.
No, she didnt, Sarah agreed with a small frown as she watched
his eyes look back towards the front of the room, At least we know that
Susan isnt going to get away with this. The police will find her and
she will go down for what she has done to everyone.
Screw the police, Kyle hissed, shaking his head slowly, They
cant do anything at this point. If they could do anything, Susan would
be in jail right now. But would you look at that? She isnt in there.
Susan will go down, but not by the hands of the police--it will be by the
hands of me.
Kyle, dont get yourself all worked up again, Sarah begged,
watching him lean forward and rest his elbows on his knees. You have
to believe that Susan will be found.
Oh, I know she will, he replied, clenching one of his fists. You
know, its obvious that your life is filled with pain and happiness.
When it comes to our lives and the peoples lives around us there is
a whole lot of pain. Probably more pain than happiness. The only thing I can
promise you Sarah is the fact that when I get my hands on Susan, I am going
to give her the most pain in the world. She will wish that she didnt
mess with anyone in this town. When I see her, I am going to give her no mercy
and I am going to spread a vengeance in her life that will make her wish that
she was dead.
You just need to rest, Sarah urged him with a small frown, You
could still be sick and
Damn it Sarah, I have had enough rest, Kyle blurted out with a
small frown. He felt his phone begin to vibrate in his pocket before he pulled
it out to look at the number.
Who is it? Sarah questioned eagerly, seeing the way that his eyes
widened when he saw the number. Kyle, who is it?
No one, Kyle lied, knowing in fact that this was someone and that
someone would be Susan. I have to take this, Ill be right back.
Ill go with you, Sarah suggested, going to get up as he
shook his head and motioned her to stay there.
Ill be right outside, I promise, Kyle stated, walking away
and through the lobby before walking outside. He took one last look at his
cell phone before realizing this was his time. His time to deal with this
whole thing his way.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Tell me youve got something good for me, Brant spoke hastily
into the phone. He thought back to his brother and he hoped that this page
from his private investigator meant only good things.
This time youre in luck, the man boasted cheerfully, Unlike
the last project you gave me, this one proved to be far easier than anticipated.
Then that means you have results, yes? Brant questioned eagerly
his worries about his brother slowly fading a bit. He thought of this new
plan to get Ken to start opening his eyes to the reality Michelle brought
with her. If nothing worked at this point, then he was certain this was his
last chance to get Ken to wake up.
I have, the man replied proudly, I found her.
Where is she? Brant asked eagerly looking around to see others
around him making their way into the memorial. Suddenly his gleeful spirits
felt a bit inappropriate. He walked away from the church feeling the breeze
sweep over him.
Overseas, the man explained a long pause following.
But you can reach her yes? Brant couldnt help but wonder
aloud, I mean you wouldnt have called me if that wasnt the
case, right?
Well no, but
the man hesitated another uneasy silence sweeping
over the conversation, there are some things that I didnt explain
to you yet.
What kind of things, Brant questioned clenching his cell phone
tighter. He looked off to the distance seeing the trees moving with the wind
their leaves a bright shade of green on this warm morning in Coral Valley.
Complications, his private investigator began to explain, They
werent something we were banking on at all, but once I located her.
What kind of complications? Brant asked feeling as if he was running
around in circles on this one.
Complications that neither one of us planned on and unfortunately they
might be something that will keep her from listening to what we have to say,
the man continued to divulge his finds to Brant as Brant found himself hoping
that he could work around this latest set of complications. He had to find
a way to save Ken no matter what the cost!
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
I had a wonderful time today, Michelle explained sipping her
iced tea as she and Ken sat in the gardens outside the Ashford mansion.
So did I, Ken confessed rubbing his arm just a bit. It was
a very eye opening experience for me.
Im so glad that you feel that way, Michelle smiled over
at him sensing the discomfort he was feeling after their long day. She reached
out to rub at his shoulder, Are you alright?
Im fine, he replied with a quick breath feeling her fingers
over his arm, I guess Im just not up to full speed yet.
Given all youve been through I think its going to be a while
before you can claim that kind of recovery. Michelle added continuing
to run her fingers over his tense muscles, In time however I have faith
that everything will start back on track again.
Id like to think so, Ken decided with a sad smile, Of
course I know the road to redemption wont be easy given some of the
sins Ive committed against those who care for me, but Im going
to keep trying to find my way back.
I think youre making a wonderful start, she continued seeing
the hope behind his eyes, and by coming to the meetings like youve
been doing, youre showing that you are ready to leave your old life
behind.
I was in a place that I really didnt want to be in, Ken
sighed heavily, and I guess I just got caught up in everything that
happened to me. I couldnt see outside my own misery long enough to really,
truly think about everyone else. The doctors tell me its in part due
to the drugs that Susan injected me with, yet
Yet
Michelle watched him closely.
Theres one thing that I truly regret-- he trailed off remembering
the night hed deceived Avery. He closed his eyes thinking back to how
hed preyed on her vulnerability--how hed betrayed a lifelong friendship
simply because hed been so set on revenge against Brant.
Ken, where did you go, Michelle inquired reaching out to touch
his arm again.
To a place I certainly didnt want to be at, he replied with
a small groan, I just hate thinking about what I lost in the madness
that surrounded me.
Youll find a way to get it back. I promise you, Michelle
squeezed his leg catching his eyes over her.
Maybe, he shrugged, but right now Id rather talk about
you. While you were speaking with Candice I made a few phone calls and I got
into contact with my friend who is the real estate agent. He says hes
got a place that might be perfect for the center and its in a wonderful
location. He says he thinks he can get a pretty good deal on it for me considering
that he owes me a few favors.
Oh Ken I dont know what to say
Michelles eyes
widened.
Dont say anything yet, Ken smiled down at her, just
wait until you see it and then make your decision.
Oh Ken, Michelle tipped up to kiss him quickly, her enthusiasm
bubbling over her, youre so amazing.
Youre not so bad yourself, he teased with a wink before
looking to her again. There was just something behind her dark eyes--something
about being with her. On some level he had to have misjudged her. He thought
of all the ways hed been ready to rid himself of Michelle, but now he
could see so many wonderful things about her. Unable to help himself he leaned
in to kiss her tenderly wondering if being with her would truly be the new
beginning he needed to start his life anew.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
This is unbelievable, Hart decided, stepping forward next to
Jenna who was talking to Don and Shannon. Well, its believable,
but I never thought it would be Jade. I just dont understand what was
going through Susans mind.
Ill tell you what was going through her mind, Shannon began,
shaking her head slowly, Absolutely nothing. All Susan cared about was
herself and that was all. She was psycho and no one really saw it coming.
I think everyone saw it coming, Jenna declared with a small frown,
looking around the room. The four had showed up earlier to be here to support
their friends and this whole scene was so depressing. We just didnt
realize she would go this far. I mean, everyone knew that Susan was a little
whack. No one knew that she was that bad though.
I feel bad seeing everyone like this, Don declared with a small
sigh, I wouldnt want to be in any of their places. If I lost my
little sister, I would go on a rampage. I dont know how I would react
to that.
I know, Hart agreed with a small nod before taking in a deep breath,
We would all probably feel the same if we were in this position--horrible.
Yeah, Jenna nodded before looking back towards the restrooms,
I am going to go freshen up, Ill be right back.
Ill go with you, Shannon decided, leaving Don and Hart to
themselves. Speaking of the clearly deranged, have you heard anything
new on Bruce Mathis case?
I have just heard the news from a while ago, Jenna replied, holding
the door open for Shannon before entering herself, I dont understand
what is going on with him. Its like one minute he is a professional
at this and leaves no traces, and then all of a sudden its like hes
lost his touch.
Hes definitely lost something, Shannon agreed with a small
frown, Something just has to give though. I know it sounds kind of different,
but I have been wondering--do you think its possible that maybe Bruce
helped Susan with this whole thing. I know it sounds kind of impossible.
Nothing is impossible, Jenna pointed out with a small nod, I
could very well see Bruce doing something like that. Hes losing his
touch and needs someones help to get things done. I could see that happening.
I just wonder how he would be able to get away with something like that,
Shannon pondered, putting all of her ideas together, He is getting really
messy, hes leaving a simple trail for us. We just havent gotten
all the clues together yet.
We just need to take a long look at this, Jenna thought for a
moment, Bruce is a master--a god at what he does. So, what is it that
is making him mess up? He never messed up and now all he can do is just give
a woman a fright.
Maybe something is on his mind, Shannon suggested with a small
shrug of her shoulders, The only question is, what is on his mind? What
is it that has him messing up over everything?
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Man, Hart began with a small frown, watching as the women disappeared
behind the closed door, I still cant believe that you married
Shannon.
Yeah well, surprise, surprise, Don began with a small smirk behind
his features, I did.
Thats what scares me, Hart shivered at the thought of even
being close to that woman. She is a wild one--actually crazy would be
more of the word there.
Yeah, tell me about it, Don agreed with a small nod, letting out
a deep sigh as Hart thought for a second.
No, I am serious man, Hart started with a small chuckle as Dons
eyes looked up at him, You should have heard some of the things I have
heard about her.
Just, lets stop talking about my wife okay, Don begged,
rubbing the back of his neck as he saw Hart nod slowly. This has kind
of been a real bad year hasnt it?
Bad? Hart questioned with a frown, shaking his head at the question.
It has been horrible Don. Its like there is no luck around Coral
Valley anymore.
Tell me about it, Don nodded, looking around the room to see the
saddened faces, Look at what being a good person does to you. Jade was
a good person and look at what happened to her. Its very sad that this
happened to her. I just cant believe that Susan would take it this far.
I could, Hart declared, looking down towards the ground. Susan
always seemed to be infatuated with pain and that should have been a good
enough clue to show that she was crazy. Susan just wanted to add more
attention to her.
Or maybe she just wanted to add more funerals to the list, Don
pointed out with a frown, folding his arms out in front of his chest. Funerals
seem to be the popular place around Coral Valley.
Tell me about it, Hart closed his eyes tightly as he thought for
a moment. I shouldve know that something bad was going to happen.
My father is back in town.
Really? Don questioned, the sound of surprise behind his tone.
What does he want?
Who the hell cares? Hart scowled, thinking to what he remembered
about his father. Walt Steiner was nothing, but a no good man who had the
middle name trouble. Im done with him Don, I dont care anymore.
I know man, Don nodded slowly, patting his friend on the back
lightly, Believe me, I think I knew that the day you took your dads
company on. That took some guts Hart and I give you some credit. I cant
say I dont blame you for doing that though. If I had a father like yours,
I would have done the same thing.
Lucky for you that your dad is actually a pretty cool guy, Hart
began, thinking back to when they were younger. I always wanted to have
a father like yours. I just got lucky enough to have Walt Steiner. The biggest
jerk on the planet.
Well, I can promise you one thing, Don started, wrapping his arm
around Harts shoulders, Your father should have realized the day
you took his company down was the day that you stopped dealing with him. He
probably just wants money, so forget him.
Damn right, Hart nodded agreeing with the words that had come
from his friends heart, I am not going to let him back in my life
no matter what it is that he wants.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
It was nice of you two to come to the memorial, Elliot decided,
watching as Hunt and Mindy stood before them. I know that Jade would
appreciate this. I know that Grady does.
It was the least that I could do, Mindy declared with a small
sigh, looking up at Cheryl and Elliot. She felt Hunt wrap his arm around her
waist for support before she went on. Jade and Brittany were buddies
and I thought Jade was a real great person. I am really sorry about all of
this because it should have never happened.
Its nothing that you could have stopped dear, Cheryl assured
her with a small frown, No one could have stopped this from happening.
I guess when they say everything happens for a reason, Hunt took
in a deep breath, looking between Elliot and Cheryl, Thats what
you should truly believe.
I know, Mindy nodded slowly before going on to her thoughts, The
world just seems too unfair lately. Ever since Russ died, more bad things
just keep piling on everyone more and more.
Well, hopefully we can just get through all of this together,
Elliot sighed, reaching over to hug Cheryl in his arms tightly, All
of us just need to have faith and everything will be alright.
I hope so, Cheryl sighed, thinking of the words that Elliot had
just said. I really do.
The one thing that was bothering all of them was Grady. Grady had been through
so much already and all it seemed to be doing was getting worse.
I hope that Grady will be able to get through this, Cheryl frowned,
leaning into her husbands embrace, I just dont know how
he is going to take all this.
He seems like a strong enough man, Hunt pointed out with a small
frown before looking towards Grady, Im sure he will hold up fine.
I hope so, Elliot let out a deep breath, thinking for a moment,
I know it isnt easy losing the woman you love. Its probably
the hardest thing you could go through with life. Its just not a fair
thing.
I can only imagine what Grady is feeling right now, Mindy replied,
looking towards the saddened figure of Gradys. I hope he will
be okay.
That was the one thing that everyone had today at the memorial. Hope. You
needed faith, you had to have the smallest faith for Grady. He had encountered
so many things in the last few years and everything just seemed to be piling
up and piling up all the time. The only thing that everyone could do was just
pray that nothing else was going to happen to anyone. If something bad was
to happen, the whole town would probably break down to bits.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Avery walked up to the front of the church noticing the lost look on Gradys
face. She could see he was heart-broken, his world shattering completely around
him and her heart ached to make it right. She remained silent seeing the way
his eyes were fixed on the photograph of Jade before him. Saying nothing she
reached out to touch his shoulder, feeling him barely move at her touch. He
didnt bother to look back and see her, but rather his hand fell flat
over hers.
I just cant believe shes gone, Grady confessed painfully
his eyes never straying from the vision of the woman he loved, After
all that time I fought what I felt for her, to think that it could end so
poorly
I know, Avery whispered quietly squeezing his shoulder again.
Its just so hard to grasp that life is so random--that one minute
were here with those we love and then the next, he shook his head,
his grief overtaking him, its just not how it was supposed to
be. She shouldve been safe--shouldve been here today and if not
for Susan, then who is to say that
Grady dont do this to yourself, Avery pleaded with him in
a worried voice.
Avery if she hadnt loved me. If Id never given in to what
Id felt for her, then Susan wouldnt have targeted her. She mightve
had a chance to
Grady argued with her, finally tipping his head
back to look up at her.
Grady if you hadnt opened your heart to her, then you wouldve
missed out on the greatest love youd ever known. You wouldve lost
those special moments and had nothing, she touched his cheek tenderly,
those are something that no one can ever steal away from you.
I just ache at the thought of the moments well never be able to
share, he sighed leaning into her touch as his tears glistened behind
his eyes.
I know, she mouthed reaching out to embrace him. She hugged him
tight wishing like hell that she could ease his pain, but she knew better.
She knew more than to try to promise him that it would be alright. They both
knew that wasnt how life would be again for either one of them.
Avery squeezed him in her arms thinking about all the things she should say--that
she wanted to say, but she found herself at a loss. She ran her fingers up
and over his spine in a slow, soothing movement hoping like hell to ease his
pain. He seemed to be warming up to her support, but she knew it was a long
road ahead of him. She opened her mouth to offer up a few words of support
at long last, but instead she found herself staring back at the door--at the
man who had just walked into the church.
Avery I
Grady began feeling her stiffen in his embrace.
He pulled back just enough to catch the expression on her face. He tilted
his head to the side gazing in the direction she was fixed on.
Grady maybe we should just go over there or
, she reached
out for his hand in an attempt to drag him away before hed spotted the
unwelcome guest, but it was too late. As soon as Gradys eyes fell upon
Cameron Stone, who now stood in the archway collecting a bunch of stares and
whispers, Avery knew they were in for trouble.
What the hell is he doing here? Grady snarled feeling his rage
bowl over him. He released Averys hand and took a step forward. He
has no right to be here.
Grady wait, Avery tried to plead with him, but it was too late.
Before she could say anything further he set off in Camerons direction.
Im going to kill him, Grady mouthed to himself ready to
make the man who had stolen his life away from him in the past finally pay
for his sins. Tonight Cameron would feel the pain that Grady was feeling one
way or another.
Grady wait, Avery tried to prevent him from doing something that would cause a scene, but no sooner were her words out Grady was on top of Cameron pounding him into the ground. There was no denying the unmistakable rage behind Grady when hed tackled Cameron to the floor. There was anger--fury and above all else a fight that had ensued that spelled trouble.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
Kyle felt his throat go dry as he flipped open his phone to answer. His mind
was filled with anger as he spoke up.
Hello, Kyle answered, waiting a few seconds only to hear silence,
Hello?
Kyle, Susans voice came through the receiver as he fought
to hold back his anger at this point in time, Its Susan.
I couldnt have guessed, Kyle began, clenching his fist at
his side before walking away from the building, What do you want Susan?
You know, you have a lot of nerve calling me.
I know Kyle and I am sorry, Susan began, shocking Kyle with her
words, I just really need to tell you something and it cant wait
Kyle.
Tell me something then, Kyle shrugged his shoulders with a small
scowl, Tell me whatever it is you want Susan because I cant really
stand this.
I cant tell you over the phone Kyle, Susan decided, hearing
Kyle go silent. Are you still there? This is something really important
Kyle.
Yeah, Im here, Kyle replied, thinking things over to himself.
With her saying the words that she couldnt say anything over the phone
got to him. That meant she wanted to see him in person. Which meant that he
would get close to getting his hands on her and bringing her back to let her
rot in jail the rest of her life. His choices were so hard, but so easy to
make.
*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*~*
...to be continued...